Be Terrified, but Be Successful


Recently, I was described as someone who pushes forward and succeeds despite openly admitting to be terrified...  Someone who recognizes fear in the room, welcomes and offers it a seat at the table, and despite its overwhelming presence, continues to stay focused and work on the task at hand.. This harrowing act, as described to me, was considered to be a true sign of bravery...

Bravery is the quality or state of having or showing mental or moral strength to face danger, fear, or difficulty. (Merriam-Webster)

This description of me was an enormous compliment. I didn't know this perception of me existed. While I haven't blogged in over a year, I do share snippets of my entrepreneurial journey candidly on social media. I've openly shared my struggles, admitted my failures, and excitedly bragged about my successes unapologetically. I wouldn't say I've overshared, but I've tried to be honest about the entrepreneurial journey I'm on. I've shared 'The Good, The Bad, and although I do catch flack for it sometimes... The Petty!

Well, what have I been up to all this time?

Over the past year, I've raised close to $40k for a local non-profit organization and successfully planned 15 events for corporate, small business, and private clients. I also launched a new business, Black Bourbon Society, which is not only bringing together affluent African American bourbon enthusiasts in the Bay Area and Atlanta, but also forcing the spirits industry to recognize a well defined niche market within the 'Urban' demographic.

I've done (still do) all of this in between dropping off/picking up my children at two different schools everyday, managing all of my lovely 'domestic duties', and somewhere between 9pm and the time I pass out with my laptop on my lap. Rinse/Repeat daily while my husband travels across the country 4-5 days every week... This is the part that has never made social media. It's 'The Ugly' thats simply easier to replace with 'The Petty' described above.

I had no idea that by speaking my fears and frustrations out loud while pushing through every obstacle of managing two businesses, being a mom, and a supportive wife, was being noticed as an act of bravery, let alone success! I constantly see ways I can be more efficient with my time. I have a 4 page list of things I have not gotten around to doing (including my taxes...) and clearly I am horrible at consistently blogging and managing my other social media platforms. I'm literally flying by the seat of my pants day by day. So to hear this being labeled as 'successful' shocked me.  

But success simply means the degree or measure of succeeding; a favorable or desired outcome. (Merriam-WebsterWe all do that daily whether we recognize it or not. And when you simplify success to just reaching a desired outcome; 'being terrified' becomes trivial. It's simply a part of the process of achieving success. 

So today, I am taking the time to acknowledge all of the successes I have made -- despite my crazy schedule, despite my ever-growing 'To Do' list, and despite being in the middle of being terrified (actually horrified at this point) by what is sure to be my next round of successes. I am humbled and grateful to be recognized for my bravery, all of my hard work, and my successes. I am inspired to continue down this path, work harder, and do more. 

Be Bold. Be Brave.
~ Sam